No reason to hope

The tram almost killed a reckless boy today, on his bike

He must have been drunk and I thought you must be drunk somewhere in the world

And you’d never ride yourself into a tram

They say the hearts break

And when X broke mine I swear I heard it break

It was the only time I actually heard the breaking

But what do they call it

when someone hurts you so bad

that your heart ties itself into a  knot and cannot breathe for months on end

And the pain and the pressure they stay with you at all times

There is no healing, just letting go

But it’s bloated and salty and

I cannot breathe without you

But it’s a choice

I chose not to unknot our love

You left and I wrapped myself up into a knot

Like a modern art piece

and waited for you to love me

How

You cannot see the breaking

You didn’t see me when I was right in front of you

So how could you know that I was almost ok

When you punched me all of a sudden in a peruvian restaurant after climbing

You could have been here

But you bailed.

09/02/2018