Her

I saw her picture

She looks kind

My love, who are you?

The one hour we had

In which we craved and tenderly did nothing

It was the only memory I cherish

It’s all I want to keep

From you

From your curls so short cut

I thought you were kind too

I laughed

I thought you loved her

I love you

Jokingly you said

I love you too
I laughed

Love

does it mean to you another nothing

You never mentioned her

Her name

Her passions

Her dreams

Her ultimate desires

Love me instead

Not for a single minute did I know

That she was yours and you do belong to her

Another cigarette to burn me

My throat is sore

I came back home and thought of children

Us in the kitchen making love

Us in the kitchen making crepes

Us loving us

There is no us

I see myself my belly to my mouth

And you massaging me and gently smiling

Or is it her?

Who is the pregnant girl?

Who is the girl?

Who are you?

Somewhere in North Dakota

We can dream how we run together

To the end of the world

In some dark sweet place

We stay near the fire, near the woods

Maybe in North Dakota

Where no one wants to be

Where the winter kills the spirit of any lonesome bird

We can dream, my sweet prince

But would you really run with me

Knowing the pain, the loneliness,

That all you have is me?

Won't you better

Go to a cheerful island

And dream of dark sweet places.


07/16/2012

Just go

Don't dance with me tonight, my love

Don't hold me like we'll stay forever in this little town

Don't bite my lips like they are yours

Don't dream of running,

Don't dream of how we'll stay.

Tonight you’ll let me go, my love

With the bashful wind

With the sea

With the coming autumn

Let me go

Let me drown

In another ocean

With the dolphins

Salt scrubbing my body

tainted by desire,

Sunburnt and thirsty

My face now blue and gold

Poisonous fish between my legs

Don't save me tonight, my love

Let me drown

Let me be caressed by the wind

by the sea

by the sailors.

Don't bring me wine and happiness tonight, my love
Just go

07/09/2012

Crack escort

Your eyes have seen love

where we both wish there was cocaine

I loved you like a crack whore loves her deal

Like the innocent vestal abandons herself to the life that is about to start

You pierced my heart with hundreds of innocent cries

Possessed by jokes

Ruminated in breaths of alcohol

I needed you the way I needed silence

I loved you quietly and strong

I gave you all I had in secret

I said your name

My face lit up

Another cigarette to light us up

Another beer just to stand you

Another unrequited love I thought

You held me and I fell

You held my hand and all was lost

And in your arms life ended

Another life without your love began.

04/17/2017

Whispers of the wind

Brought by the wind

I hear the lamentations of the angry

the mob defiling its teeth

with sacred meat of poets and of rangers

I hear the woe and play the beat

I heard you’re gone

I heard your soul got stronger

I heard your breath bathed in methane and rubbing alcohol

The wind so long ago has told me

You loved a different one in vain

You loved you lost maybe you married

So long ago your eyes were free

I loved I lost maybe I married

The wind shall whisper through my trees

The mob so loud will cloud the voice.

So long ago I whispered.

So long ago

We dreamt of loneliness and jazz

In soothing screams of unborn children

We got our backyards filled with moonshine

And then in old bitters we bathed

With pages torn and unpaved roofs

We flew in circles, smoked disasters

And then collapsed in spit and glue

Not enough glue to hold us strong

We split to pieces

Got renewed

We broke and fixed our sporadic ventures

And then I flew

Defiled and abrasive and aloof
I whisper

I don’t crave you.

29/10/2015