Ask the cards

Did I run from you instead of towards you

I ask the cards

I want a different answer

Tell me I was deliriously happy.

Tame sweethearts underneath

Who lost it all

Who will soon find it.

I was not happy.

Were you?

Maybe you were too selfish to be unhappy

After all

What was your job

I never asked you to be

You weren’t really

You pulled away in rhythmic patterns

To the beat of raucous vinyls

Every day more tired of pulling you towards me

The rope thick hurting my hands

I cannot lift you

Why don’t you just walk towards me

Distracted

You're reading your philosophy of nothing

I pull and watch in awe as nothing happens

Is that what you are reading of

I stop and watch you from afar

I pull once more

And walk towards you

How much further could I go

I stop and cut with giant scissors the intricate ropes

How foolish of me to have tied you

Be free I wish you with a smile

With bloody hands I try to hold your arm

Now that you’re free

Maybe you choose to be mine

But you just ran